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I have been going about this blog thing very strangely. It is a good way to do it. But I feel like I need to update more. Lacking behind lately, due to being really stressed out.
Have had a lot go on with my life, my car, my job, my relationships with people.
But you can always follow my little life on twitter. Since I abuse it, haha.
Have been thinking about this as a career or not a lot. Debating back and forth to do nudes, and try to really make money off of art nudes for a while. But am scared of the possible repercussions. But we will see. I feel like this is a place I can be honest. So I want to be.
I have been really insecure, scared, etc over this. Over everything in my life. How I do my day job. How I come off to people. My love life. My family. I have almost driven myself insane in the past two weeks.
Now, for some reason, I have 180'd, come out of it. Realized a little. Still a little paranoid, freaked out. But I guess that's a normal feeling when you have felt out of placed for a while. But want to get back into the swing of everything, realize things are so much better. Maybe I shouldn't stretch myself out so thin.
I am not going to post any photos, but of course my flickr has a lot on it. Maybe next time, since I am going to try and update more, maybe I will if I keep it a little more personable.
And since this seems to be an ongoing theme in blogs these days, I want to write about a few things I view through my mind.
That life isn't as simple as people mean it to be. It isn't just "Put your mind to it, and you can do it." disney movie saying theories. Talking and doing are two different things. Be original. Try and think for yourself, don't post things on here that you just read somewhere else. If you aren't meant to be deep, or a close-up finder, the don't try and be.
I notice all these little things, even with my bad eyes. But only about ones that intrigue me.
Nothing that I haven't written down before. All these little things are nice, but they sadly surround a much more complicated substance.
I am a romantic though. So I will say that I miss everything being simple very much. And I constantly think in that mind set.
I am sorry I've been gone forever.
A lot has happened with me since I made a real last update. Have been up and down the east coast, burning my car's mileage into the ground. Working. Being paranoid, burning bridges, building new ones, and making hard decisions in my life.
I just got back from being in Louisiana visiting family I haven't seen in 10 years, that was rough too.
But now I am back, with a positive outlook, an ambition, and I know exactly where I want to be. I just need to get there! Lots of stuff standing in my way, but I'm not going to let it get me down.
I have lots of new people that I've worked with, made connections, have even become really good friends. And I have more people that I've admired to come. I am really happy I get to be apart of people's art that I've stared at for years. It makes everything seem so worth it.
I've also been writing more, but it will probably never see the light of day. Just thought I'd say, my brain has been in high working mode. Lots of little ideas floating around in this little head.
In more modeling news, my first zivity set went live! Woo.
I am not sure if they 24 hour or 30 day trials anymore, but you def try and check it out. It's only 10 dollars a month and you get 5 votes to share with people! It's really a lot of fun, and there are lots of great artists on there! So check it out here, and vote please!
Now for some god damn pictures up in this piece!
First is by Joseph Balestra. When he was here for two weeks. Ms Jess Hawk did my make-up for me. We all collaborated really well. I love it.
The next few shots are from Ynot Photography. Who I always love to work with. We actually just took these the other day. He's always speedy with editing.
It was really thick outside that day, we had a huge thunderstorm just a few hours before we went out.
Next few shots are from when I went to Boston back in June. Dana Tarr showed Joseph Balestra and I around. We got some good shots, and got to use some vintage clothing from Circa. Also, you get to see a little friend I met while I was there. :]
Next few shots are from Visual Distress based out of Primal Stare Studios in NJ. He took some shots of me when I went up there and helped out for a workshop! And he took one of Samantha Nicole and I stuck in a box! Haha.
I am so behind it's insanity, not going to into too much detail.
You can check out my flickr few all the new shots, everything else. I will start updating again soon though.
I went to Philadelphia, and Baltimore this month. NYC next month!
Have been having a lot of fun though. I hope everyone's doing well.
Leaving for DC tomorrow, first stop, shooting with Sandy Jones! And then hopefully Mickle Design Werks.
Then hanging out with PK Brazil at his place, Baltimore for Otakon the next day!
Asylum's Wii Party that night.
Shooting with Renee and Michael Woodward on Sunday. A very very busy weekend.
Then Monday hopefully shooting with someone I won't mention, in being scared I might be getting my hopes up way too much! Haha. Or possibly Tuesday.
Joseph Balestra arrives from NH on Tuesday, the mayhem will begin. Along with the epicness. Staying in Richmond/VA Beach area the first week, and then Philadelphia the second. :D Haven't quite started booking for Philly yet, but I am pretty damn excited for it.
Photo by Lindsey Heath from a few months ago. It was quite seriously me just in a normal day. Enjoy. :]
Need to start packing, and stop being lazy.
Oh and I got my haircut last night by the wonderful Jen Jennings. Just cut my dead ends off, and my bangs are super short again.
Are making travel plans so frikkin' hard? Gr. I also really need to give in and get a credit card.
I wish I could go to Philadelphia this weekend! :[ but I'm gonna go to DC instead. It's closer to home and much easier. Haha. :D Oh wells, what can you do?
Joseph Balestra will be here in one week! Book him if you'd like! We'll be in Philadelphia for one weekend, and all around VA/MD for the rest of the time he's here. :3
We plan on being crazy awesome the entire time, which won't be too hard, cause I mean, look at us. amirite.
Picking up Mojokiss tomorrow from the bus station! Excited to meet and work with him! Like crazy!
Worked with Lost For Words yesterday, but we sadly had to cut short because I got stung on my wrist by a wasp! I even asked the wasp why he struck me in such a way, I still don't know how it happened. But geez it hurt, and swelled. Ew.
Here's a crappy webcam photo I took yesterday before my shoot, in my new bedroom, which sadly isn't quite finished yet.
Big bows are love, so is lace. And cute black flats with big bows on them.
Need to plan DC this weekend, my bf needs to wake his ass up and talk to me or something! So hectic today, and it's my day off. Lameeeee.
Been shooting quite a bit lately. Still trying to figure out trips and the such. It's really awful not having the internet at my disposal at all times. :[
Need to fix that, somehow or another. Wish I had the money to just pay the bill every month, but I sadly don't.
But I did put the money down on my MM account, or am going to, once it goes into Mike's bank account. So that's cool.
If you'd like, I will start taking donations to get myself the internet every month, also, I need some new stuff to shoot in (I really want latex), and if you'd like to make a suggestion as to what you would like to see me shoot in (don't say nothing, that's not nice!), you can e-mail me at racheldashaemodel@yahoo.com.
Headline it "outfit blog" or something, so I know it's not spam. :D And if you'd like to make a donation, here is my paypal.
Also, I will mention you (if you'd like) in my blog, myspace, deviantart journal, livejournal, or if it's a donation for an outfit, I will credit you for donating for the outfit in anywhere the photos make go up.
And it can help me with trips in the future, etc, etccccccccc.
On with the photos, oh, and I need to post some other stuff up from the before shoot, where Marcus Hyde showed me this huge print he did of me! I'm also the front of his business cards, which made me excited. >D The little things make me happy in life. (not little to me though, actually a huge deal in my head, but some people just think I'm silly.)
My zivity account is back up and running, so add me please! RachelDashae@Zivity.com
Debating on whether or not to put the money down to get 20 more pictures a month on MM. I don't own a credit card, so until I can go to the bank and put some money into my bf's account, I have time to think about it, haha.
Oh, and happy 4th of July everyone! Gonna go out soon with my family and see fireworks, waiting for my mom to finish cookin up some yummy burgers. :]
NJ/NY in two weeks, that's if we can get the gas and stuff to ggooo. :[ I'm crossing my fingers!
Joseph Balestra will be here in a little over two weeks. Philadelphia the weekend after! Gotta book!
Possible San Fransisco trip at the end of August, into the beginning of September. Sweet jesus.
And Boston/ Southern NH possibly at the beginning of August. Mmm, fun, fun.
New stuff!
First from Corwin Prescott back in May when I went to Philadelphia. I hearts Corwin, he's fucking awesome, and that's the only way to describe him, haha. I got to shoot with the fox, he's such a ladies man.
.... Ladies.
Next is a promo shot for zivity.com for Ynot Photography. Not sure when the set will go up, but I'm gonna hope for soon, and hopefully it'll be bitchin. These pictures are teh sex, I really didn't even know I had it in me! Seriously!
Next shots are from when I went to Boston/NH. Shot with the really cool Karen Jerzyk Photography. She was really cool, and we snuck into some kick ass locations. I'm hoping to work with her again if I go back up there. :]
That dress was insanity, and she made the hat I'm wearing in these shots! They're pretty creepy, and I look like a little kid. Haha.
Mmmm. Now food's done and I'm starving! Gotta get some strength if I'm gonna start blowin crap up!
