Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Sooo...


I have been going about this blog thing very strangely. It is a good way to do it. But I feel like I need to update more. Lacking behind lately, due to being really stressed out.

Have had a lot go on with my life, my car, my job, my relationships with people.

But you can always follow my little life on twitter. Since I abuse it, haha.

Have been thinking about this as a career or not a lot. Debating back and forth to do nudes, and try to really make money off of art nudes for a while. But am scared of the possible repercussions. But we will see. I feel like this is a place I can be honest. So I want to be.

I have been really insecure, scared, etc over this. Over everything in my life. How I do my day job. How I come off to people. My love life. My family. I have almost driven myself insane in the past two weeks.

Now, for some reason, I have 180'd, come out of it. Realized a little. Still a little paranoid, freaked out. But I guess that's a normal feeling when you have felt out of placed for a while. But want to get back into the swing of everything, realize things are so much better. Maybe I shouldn't stretch myself out so thin.

I am not going to post any photos, but of course my flickr has a lot on it. Maybe next time, since I am going to try and update more, maybe I will if I keep it a little more personable.

And since this seems to be an ongoing theme in blogs these days, I want to write about a few things I view through my mind.

That life isn't as simple as people mean it to be. It isn't just "Put your mind to it, and you can do it." disney movie saying theories. Talking and doing are two different things. Be original. Try and think for yourself, don't post things on here that you just read somewhere else. If you aren't meant to be deep, or a close-up finder, the don't try and be.

I notice all these little things, even with my bad eyes. But only about ones that intrigue me.

Nothing that I haven't written down before. All these little things are nice, but they sadly surround a much more complicated substance.

I am a romantic though. So I will say that I miss everything being simple very much. And I constantly think in that mind set.

18 comments:

Nickoladze said...

There shouldn't be any repercussions for nudity, you're modeling, not shooting a porno. There's a difference between the two, but apparently everybody thinks it's the same thing.

I don't think you should be afraid, but it is your choice.

Brendan said...

Doing nudity will prevent other venues though.. tough call...

BlankPhotog said...

Take your time. No need to rush into anything. I don't see the need for you to do nudes just to make money... only if you really want to and feel comfy. My advice is if you're going to try it, try it with one person and make sure you have the right to stop them from posting online in your contract!

Ittiz said...

Posing nude is something that, once done, can never be undone. If you are questioning yourself about whether you want to do it or not, that I say not. If it's something you really want to do then you would really want to do it.

TinyRockerGrrl said...

I think you are beautiful and unique. To me, what makes you SO unique is that you DO leave something to the imagination. You're not nekkid all over the internet but you sure as hell are definitely all over the internet! People know the name Rachel Dashae and its b/c you rock at what you do; its very unique and special. Don't get me wrong; I think the female body is one of the most beautiful creations in the world but I don't think you need to do it. If you are having any doubts, then definitely don't BUT if its something you want to pursue and are comfortable, then don't let anything or anyone stop you.
xoxo
*Jenn

RachelDashae said...

Jenn Ryan,

I love you.
Just sayin'.
I really hope we meet one day just so I can give you a big hug, you just made my heart want to explode.

TinyRockerGrrl said...

It'll happen one day honey!!! <3 xoxo

Mosh said...

I love you my darling :)
Just like everyone said, and you probably already know, take your time on the nudity idea.
One person said doing nudes will prevent other venues...hmm not sure on that one. I have never been denied work or an agency due to my nudes.
Personally I think you'd make a great nude model, but of course thats a huge decision to make.
If you do nudes though, we better be getting nekid together :P

RachelDashae said...

Mosh,

I miss you girly!

And I have been considering it more lately, and think it may be a good thing to experiment with for a while. And we have to be nekkid together. If we aren't. The world might end. ;D

Remember? Two girl latex site. Not two girl big hair glitter hot dog site. Hahaha.

Mosh said...

OMGZ nekid with Rachel? That might just end the world through a giant fiery explosion.
Maybe we can convince Jenn to join. Nuclear explosions galore if that were to happen.

LOL. No glittery hot dog big hair for us.

piratephoto said...

I pretty mich agree with everyone above. It depends what you ultimately want to do in life, but either way, there's no rush? Take as long as you need to and make sure if you do decide to that those who are closest to you know so they aren't suprised by it at a later day. Your doing full body implied so it's not a huge leap, but at the same time, it is. I think you'd make a great art nude model because your posing is awesome and your look, especially your hair gives awesome possibilty. Plus, id love to shoot you nude when we one day get to shoot, which we will!

Travis said...

Unfortunately there are consequences for any choice. The choice to pursue nude modeling is a big one. I know you wrote this some time ago, and things may have changed. But, if you have any desire to be in the public eye outside of modeling then you may want to put more thought into the decision. As is anyone in the public eye, anything and everything you have out there will be for the world to see… and judge. And Judge the world will. You have an exquisite figure and nude modeling would further your portfolio, your expressions are fantastic and as a model I think you would make fine art if you chose to pursue that avenue. But there are varied types of nude modeling out there. Topless, implied, or full frontal, erotic, fetish and bondage, fine art, bodyscapes etc… the list goes on. You can always ease into it, try a few topless shots test your comfort level and whether or not you have the “Moxy” to do it. And whether or not you find yourself happy doing it.

AKiTA e v i t a said...

That was absolutely the most beautiful thing I've ever read in a long time(:

Cat said...

Rachel, this is Cat/Kallia.

The choice to do nudity is one you need to really think about on your own, I'm sure you know.

As a fellow nude model, I will not tell you what to do only my experience with nude modeling.

If I could go back 2 years and change it, I would never do nude modeling.

Though I love the human body and I love my nudity work-- in fact it is easily my favorite work, there's so much negativity that comes with it. I do constantly worry that my family may find out, disapprove, and that it could eventually be a big fiasco depending on what type of job I get in the future.

Then again, though I love modeling more than anything else in the world I know and understand it is just not practical to make money off of.... Even the best models only make but so much. In the future, I want a job making 80-100grand a year, and for me that means going to med school.

I think it might just be a big decision for you to make on how far into modeling you'd like to go... is this what you want to do with your life? Do you see modeling being an adequate source of income in 10 years when you're not as young??? I think that's the most important question. If the answer is no, then maybe you want to consider that in your decision. It would be a shame to be ashamed of nude modeling when you end up in a different field 10 years from now, or with a husband who has a job where that is looked down upon IE: a security clearance (mine already messed with my boyfriends) or a political position.

Also consider the creeps that will follow your nude photos. I can guarantee you might not be comfortable with it, because I am not comfortable with it. My block list on DA for people who have either
A. Said something weird to me
B. Grouped my work into a collection on DA that includes smutty porn
C. Put my photos onto porn sites (some i was notified when these sites were busted for child pornography)
Includes over 150 people... and this is on Deviant Art, a website that is supposed to be mostly safe.

I go by the name Kallia for a reason, and that's to hide my identity from people who may know me in the real world, including family. It's just none of their business, I feel. But you go by your REAL name.... So consider that this will FOREVER be attached to your name. FOREVER. Once its on the internet, there's no getting it down.

However, if you do decide to do nude modeling please let me know and I will help connect you to some very good paying photographers, some you may already know :D

There's so many pros and cons to it. Maybe my point of view will help a bit :/ much luck to you in making this decision, do what you're most comfortable with ultimately.

Martynas said...

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who made this photo?
than you

HaCk CrAcK said...

Do not worry, someday all the information and be very clear as we enter a phase of marrow depression that is what I'm doing with my life. But this is good, because if you are good guides can be a big change in you and for the better.

fence you well in your life as usual and you follow and give so forth. You're a very pretty girl with a very bright future insurance so you will shine.

Greetings

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